Some days I feel like I'm a bad friend. In the last year or two, Ive just gotten wrapped up in my own life and routine. I don't call my friends just to talk or find out how they're doing. A large part of that is the whole cell phone minute thing. I don't get free minutes until after 9 or the weekend and I spend that time with Steve. It's not that I don't care, and if they call me I talk to them and help them out when they need it, but I don't make it a point to call. Is that bad? Although when you think about it, if I spent an hour on the phone once a week with everyone I care about, I'd spend at least 7 hours of my free time on the phone. That's some serious cauliflower ear. There's also everyone's schedule. I can't keep track of Alisha's and I live with her. Everyone works different shifts and they all have lives and other friends, so I never know when to call. I'm sure you all know I care. I guess I'm just not a phone person.

Ahh...the seagulls are back and Dairy Queen is open....it must be spring.

My latest obsession (City of Heroes) has not only been a help in the sleep department, but it has also kick-started my creative writing. I now have a couple of (apparently well received) stories posted on the CoH Writers Guild (http://www.cohwritersguild.com/). Go check them out!

Edit: Forgot to tell you what to look for. Currently the two posted are titled 'Sanctuary' and 'Where Storms Begin' (I think it's type-o'd as When Storms Begin). You can also look them up by author.

hope /hoʊp/ noun, verb, hoped, hop·ing.
–noun
1.
the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best

A new possible job opportunity has come up for Steve directly on the heels of my last post. It's perfect. So, do I hope and wish and pray only to be disappointed once again? Obviously ignoring the posting is dumb, so once again he's going to take time off of work to come up here to drop off his resume(it has to be done 'in person'). Then we'll sit on pins and needles for the next two weeks waiting to hear. Having been through this numerous times in the last 9 months, it's getting hard to build up any excitement or hope.

Wish us luck.

A family friend lost her job of 20 years due to cut-backs. The state police are letting over 100 guys go due to the state deficit. My cousin's husband has been looking for a good job here for two years. So what hope can I possibly have of my fiance getting a decent job here? I'm grateful he currently has a job, and a good one at that, but it's 200 miles away.

In three weeks, we will have been together for a year. The man must be insane. He has made the trip up here and back around 45 times in that year. I guess I should take that as a compliment.

There is a substantial list of things that my fiancé hasn't done. Well, there's an enormous list of things he hasn't done, but we're just focusing on the things I've done and he hasn't. I know there are things that he has done and I haven't, but that list is much smaller, and since he doesn't make it a point to expose me to them(like I do with him), I'm not mentioning them here. It just amazes me that there are things I grew up doing, like ice skating, the he has never done. This weekend's adventure was going to a play at the community theater. I kept it a secret, so it was a nice surprise. I think he really enjoyed it. I'll have to track sown the list and post as we cross things off. I think we may tackle the ice skating thing next. My only hesitation is the possibility of an injury. He works on his feet(walks an average of 5 miles a day back and forth across the warehouse)and if he breaks an ankle......I suppose, it's a chance you take.

Just when you think you're on the downside of winter, Mother Nature drops a half a foot of ice and snow on your doorstep. Pretty much everything was closed this morning and 911 was saying to stay off the roads unless absolutely necessary. But, of course, this meant nothing to my boss, so I trudged out in the mess, put my truck into four wheel drive, and came to work.

On the other hand, it IS March, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Spring is almost here. Yea!

March 7: Mercury turns direct
As Mercury ends its retrograde in Aquarius, it's time to incorporate everything you've learned since Mercury turned retrograde in Pisces on February 14. As this communication planet has traveled from a sensitive water sign back into a logical air sign, it'll be necessary to go back to old conversations with a more detached perspective. At times you may have felt that you were straddling two worlds: the emotions of your heart and the intellectual perspective of your mind. Now, however, with Mercury direct you can confidently implement the changes that you desire.

I can't wait. This explains soooo much. Last night was kinda harsh. I just couldn't stop crying. Logically, in my head, things weren't horrible enough to be crying, but that didn't stop it. Thank the gods Alisha was home. She popped in to make sure I was ok, then she crawled into bed with me and talked while I sobbed. She gets total props and my gratitude.

March 7: Mercury turns direct
As Mercury ends its retrograde in Aquarius, it's time to incorporate everything you've learned since Mercury turned retrograde in Pisces on February 14. As this communication planet has traveled from a sensitive water sign back into a logical air sign, it'll be necessary to go back to old conversations with a more detached perspective. At times you may have felt that you were straddling two worlds: the emotions of your heart and the intellectual perspective of your mind. Now, however, with Mercury direct you can confidently implement the changes that you desire.

I can't wait. This explains soooo much. Last night was kinda harsh. I just couldn't stop crying. Logically, in my head, things weren't horrible enough to be crying, but that didn't stop it. Thank the gods Alisha was home. She popped in to make sure I was ok, then she crawled into bed with me and talked while I sobbed. She gets total props and my gratitude.